Crying Inside, Smiling Outside

She looked outside the window. The sky was crying and so was her heart. But outside, she just smiled and pretended that nothing was wrong. She may not be good in faking smiles, but this time, she really need to fake her smile. So her parents wouldn't know that she was having too many problems. She didn't want her siblings to know too. So she kept laughing to her siblings' jokes. And again, pretended that nothing was wrong.

All of her negative thoughts were haunting her. Her guilty feeling came again. It was killing her literally. She has always has this fear inside of her. The fear of the past repeating again. She felt like no one deserved her. People would be a lot happier if she never existed. She felt that she was just.....a loser. Pathetic. Worthless. Useless. And all the negative trait she could think of.

Hlovate,Anthem

That moment when the famous person that you admire the most noticed your existence. Best. Moment. Ever. It's indescribable. So the last post I wrote about Joe Brooks noticing my existence. But this one, I'm gonna write about this one local author, that I admire the most, noticing my existence.

There was this one day. I was stressed due to some personal problems and also stressed due to exams. I decided to shake my worries and stressed away by checking my fb and twitter. I checked the fb notifications the moment I checked my fb. AND GUESS WHAT? There was this noti, it read, "Hlovate commented on your wall post" Iwas a lil blurry at that time. Didn't know what it meant exactly. So I clicked on it.

Jeng jeng jeng... *drum roll please*

I saw that Hlovate COMMENTED ON MY WALL POST! The wall post was sent a year ago, ya know? Eh, not exactly. I posted on her wall on Dec 2011 actually. Well, back to the story, HLOVATE COMMENTED ON MY WALL POST. I seriously enjoyed her writing. And this happened a few afters I finished reading her latest novel; Anthem. Hehe.

I wish I could put the printscreen, but sorry I can't  don't want to cuz I want to stay as anon. Hehe sorry.

Peace and Love

Over and Out xoxo 

"Fate and your dream can collide"

Fate and your dreams can collide - Joe Brooks

         What Joe Brooks said is true. Fate and your dreams can collide if you hold on to whatever you want to achieve tightly.  Maybe you think it's impossible. Maybe it's unreachable. But if you hold on and never gave up, your dreams can collide with fate.

          This has been proved to me last year. The day Joe Brooks replied to me. But nahh, let's not talk about last year. Let's talk about yesterday :)

          So urm..I sent a dm to Joe Brooks yesterday. I did it...for fun. Didn't even expect his reply. My thought when I sent the dm was 'Why am I spamming him? It's not like he's gonna reply' So I just ignored the dm I sent to him and continue doing things what I left.

        The next day, I opened twitter as usual. I checked my dm for other reasons. Then baam! I saw his name on the dm thingy. I saw his reply. I was kinda shaking. I was smiling to my cheeks. Felt like screaming but tried not to scream cuz I don't want my neighbours to think that I'm crazy haha. The experience of Joe Brooks replying your dm is just indescribable. Serious talk.

        And I told myself "It's okay that I can't go to his concert, at least he noticed my existence"

        Well not only that. I found out that he sent a dm to my other account (aka my fan account). Hehehe. Then he favourited my tweets twice. Ahhh he's like the best artist ever! Noticing his fans.

       As a conclusion, I still couldn't believe that he replied to my dm, sent a dm and favourited my tweets twice. I really hope he'd win the competition so he can go to Australia!

Peace and Love xoxo. (bajet gaya joe cehh)