She looked outside the window. The sky was crying and so was her heart. But outside, she just smiled and pretended that nothing was wrong. She may not be good in faking smiles, but this time, she really need to fake her smile. So her parents wouldn't know that she was having too many problems. She didn't want her siblings to know too. So she kept laughing to her siblings' jokes. And again, pretended that nothing was wrong.
All of her negative thoughts were haunting her. Her guilty feeling came again. It was killing her literally. She has always has this fear inside of her. The fear of the past repeating again. She felt like no one deserved her. People would be a lot happier if she never existed. She felt that she was just.....a loser. Pathetic. Worthless. Useless. And all the negative trait she could think of.
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